Feelings, Wo wo wo Feelings

Q: What do I do about all the powerful emotions – anger, despair, feeling lost? I don’t like these troubling feelings, and I want to get away from them.

A: Nothing I can say will answer your question for you. For me, it was looking to see who all the troubling feelings referred to. Now, I cannot find the person to whom they refer. The feelings still arise! Yes, indeed! But I don't find a reference point for them, and so they all just immediately fall down a hole. So certainly, the thought of doing anything about them seems silly, and like a big waste of time. It wouldn't even occur to me to act on them.

How does this happen, losing the reference point to a "self"? I don't know, really. Just being sick of suffering, sick of the whiny dissatisfied thing I called "me," and then just looking to see if that was real. My instinct was that it was not, because I didn't think such suffering was part of God's plan.

So don't worry about the feelings. They are going to happen always. Just look at what the feelings refer to, and who that whole story is all about, and see if there is really any need to get all wrapped up in the content and implications of those feelings. I found there was no need to pay attention to them. You may find that too.